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Monday, August 16, 2010

Random thoughts
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I really dont understand... I hate getting to know someone new, getting close and later off they leave you for something you said or do that they could not accept in their range.
I tried to be nice, I even tried to change.. I don't even know who I am anymore, Where's the real me? is it when I was back in highschool ? is it when I was being a stuckup? or is it now?
I know i was a stuck up, but that was way back then... & I changed for the better..
although sometimes i do know im self centered, but that only was at the moment..
How could anyone just draws an end because of 1 tiny mistakes that you do, or rather, they take it another way when you're not.

if thats the case, does that means a person has to have many personalities to suit others? what is up with the people? why could i sense that while im writing this, there would be people concludes that im being self centered here? does this not happens to you before?

im not wanting to argue over a situation of different views, but why its concluded this way...

argh im feeling cranky... I dont want to take my anxiety medicine to control my emotions that my heart could not handle..

im feeling down, i thought i met an awesome friend, sharing the same dreams passion and having the same interest.. where on earth could you find someone like that...

I just finds it unfair that things ended that way bcause the otherparty just ended it without giving you any chance to fight it back.

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Humans are the most amazing creatures on Earth.
we talk bad about others at the back but when others do that
to you, you felt angry but didnt you do that to others as well.

why pick on others when you're also doing it ? I really dont understand
I need an explanation for this.

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I really wants to move out, nt because of i have trouble or problems living with my family.. but i need more space, because I can't stand myself sometimes, & I don't want that to be a bother to anyone..


I thought i found my dreams... But I have too many to begins with.
I want to be able to answer what I would do after getting a diploma when people questioned me.

I want to be able to find the love in doing smthing rather than do it for the sake of living...




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Monday, August 16, 2010



Monday, May 17, 2010

I've no title for this !
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I just said it... And I do feel better [wtf right ?! ]
All you said was to apologise.
And I don't know how to reply.

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Monday, May 17, 2010



Friday, April 30, 2010

His Birthday...
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For once, I do not know how to wish you Happy..
Because seeing you Happy actually hurts even tho
I kept telling myself, If you're Happy, I'm Happy for
you. Well, that's bullshit.

If it takes 5 years to see through you, then these 5years are not wasted
Yea, One day I might regret talking this about you.. But hell, I freaking don't care
about how much I potray you to be as that Gentleman/ perfect.

I'm glad this is pretty much ended even if I starting to have nostalgic here and there, I'm moving on, Since you never thought of catching me when you made me falling for you.

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Friday, April 30, 2010



Monday, April 26, 2010

Growing up.
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就算整个世界
把我放弃
而至少快乐伤心
我自己决定
所以我说
就让他去
我知道潮落
之后一定有潮汐
有什么了不起


sudden urge to actually leave house
living on my own...
and actually missing my dad right now :(
despite how control-sive he is reacently,
I still want him to be the man of the house..

tho, dad did asked me when can I be fully independent?
and did I answered in 2 years time ?!
But, It's werid that I can't even make simple decisions of my
own...

I did wanted to ask him when He rushed me back home when I did told
my mum I was going out with classmates after school..
Which is, Dad, are you afraid of me growing up and fly too far away and
never be back again? Are you afraid that you would lose me once you let go?
You wanted me to be independent, But you never let me have to chance
to explore the world which is so much bigger out there.
I can only do that if you are letting me go. Why are you being so control-sive right now? Because I'm studying at a polytechnic? or what is the main reason ?

That day... I wanted to call K, and I was crying bitterly since I was told to be back home right that instant, And taking that lonely train back home with my Ipod blasting emotional songs, I want to cry.. so badly
And I finally did, at the shower to reading my notes to falling asleep..
All I thought of was to call K.. Which I know by now.. He's never gonna be te same
anymore.. He's never going to be there for me anymore..

And I learned not to lied to myself because it's not going to make me feel any better.

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Monday, April 26, 2010



Monday, April 19, 2010

No PMS?
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Knowing K for 5years, It stopped, Things change for a reason.. Mayday In 2 years time ♥
No PMS, But I'll always remember that Night ! That Night where
all 5 of them with the 13000 of us :)





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Monday, April 19, 2010



Saturday, April 17, 2010

DNA. THE ULTIMATE
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It's the day !! awesome !
Concert in 6 hours time !




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Saturday, April 17, 2010



Saturday, April 03, 2010

April.... Going Crazy
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No, Not about Mayday's concert that is in 14 days time in National Stadium instead of Padang.
Its D D D D D D ...

FYL !



[I can't believe I could ever be that aggressive, since I know the truth from that day]

April.... March was a bad month, I can't let it continue for the rest of the year.
Time to move on, even tho it had been 2 years or rather 5 years in knowing a person.
1 month should be enough even its how difficult to get over it !

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Saturday, April 03, 2010